Yesterday Ethan was dressed in his smart outfit, and I myself carried him into his casket. I made sure he was all snug with a soft blanket for a pillow, blankets over him and his giraffe blanket he loved so much. He has trinkets made out of salt dough from all the family, with duplicates made for family members to treasure. Something the hospice does and such a lovely idea that I had to make more for more famly members.
He has a teddy bear and photos of his father's father - Ethan's grandfather, plus a cross that his Father's sister, Ethan's aunt gave Ethan when he was in hospital. I decided it was right thing to do after checking with his grandmother that it was ok to do so.
I have placed photos of all of his siblings and myself in with him as well, to keep him company plus a book as he did so love his books.
I will leave to spend some time with him before the funeral in about 15 minutes. I have no idea how I will be at the funeral, it still seems so unreal at times. However at other times like this morning I just did not want to get out of bed, as I knew what is happening is real. He has gone.