Today is Ethan's 5th birthday, it is such a big number and I find it hard to imagine how Ethan would look like, how he would be aged 5.
He is my forever 3 year old, nearly 4. Not my 5 year old boy who would have been heading into reception class this year (though he was already at school).
Today I am sad at what I am missing, but still grateful I had him at all. Today I wont be cooking for the my brood, but will treat ourselfs to a take away.
Later on we will release balloons for Ethan.
An ordinary Mother with extraordinary children!