Ethans funeral will be Wednesday 25th September at Cambridge crematorium west chapel at 1.30pm. All will be welcome. We will then be on to Holiday Inn Cambridge for tea/coffee and cup cakes. If you wish to bring or send cup cakes then please do so.
Flowers and/or donations to EACH childrens hospice Milton.
I have set up a just giving page for those that wish to donate http://www.justgiving.com/Nicola-Mitchell7
I am hoping to arrange (and I am in the process) a big memorial/celebration of life for Ethan in the form of a music event in November. I have a few artist confirmed and I am just trying to find a venue where there is a bar, there is a stage area, and child friendly. This will be for EACH hospice too. If anyone can offer any help please do let me know.
I would have liked to be able to donate the money that is Ethan's Child Trust Fund to EACH however his father - who set up the account for Ethan when I was in London by Ethans bedside during another PICU admission, has refused to tell me where the money is held. He has said he had already spoken to the bank re the money and he was going to get the money as "You have already have enough money out of Ethan". I presume he means I have been recieiving Ethans DLA money.
He has also refused to contribute to the cost of funeral saying that I can get the money from the social.
In the meantime I will go on with sorting out the funeral that is fitting for my little wonderful boy, and will try to keep on going on.
I wake every night and I think I can hear Ethan. I have not had a whole nights sleep for a very long time as Ethan would wake a few times each night, so I wake. I keep thinking I need to check on Ethan when I wake and then I remember.
I remember I will not see his smile again, I remember he will not put his arms around my neck for a cuddle. He will not sing me a song. I will not see his little face light up when he sees me. I want him back.
I will miss him forever more.